Enigma

she was an enigma, even to herself...up one day, down the other...both directions taken to the extreme...she longed for the middle ground, a balance within the spectrum of emotions...she didn't know her exhaustion, she'd lived it so long...

she fell to her knees...the pain that permeated her right down to her core threatened to take her very breath away...she prayed, quietly at first but, as her sobs wracked her frame, she began to call out to the Source, beg for some respite...the disappointment of many years, many broken promises weighed on her as though the world had settled in upon her shoulders...she prayed and prayed until her voice was but a whisper, again a quiet begging to the Universe to help her make sense of a hurt so deep and so old as to have been there even before she was born...

and then the dawn came, a light fell gently upon her face and woke her from where she'd let the sleep take her...she sat up slowly, gingerly, feeling a soreness in her body, the result of a violent purging in the form of tears and screams from the night before...she looked out toward the window and saw the same thing she'd seen the day before...only this time it was different...the tree still stood in her front yard, the neighbor's car still sat in his driveway, life seemed the same...but, she was looking thru different eyes...a different vantage point...somewhere in the night, an angel answered her prayers...a simple prayer really...she was given the gift of stillness, of calm...and from this place she was able to see the world from a different vantage point...she saw the light...emanating from everyone, everything...most surprising...she looked to her hand and saw that same light...
she still felt emotions to the extreme...but no longer did she fight the sway back and forth...she flowed with the tide of her feelings and released herself from the prison she had locked herself in...an enigma she remained to the outside world but, within, she was at peace with her uniqueness...for once embracing her intensity...