somebody else's somebody

tryin to be somebody...
according to somebody's rules-
somebody else's idea of what it takes to be
somebody...
when all i want-
all i really, really want...
is to be
me...

weakness

strong-
be strong...
how the fuck should i be strong?
when my heart is so strongly-
pulling me to places
that glorify my weakness?
how weak is my weakness?
really?
when it can tear my resolve
to pieces...

always more...

If only you could grasp
the depth of what I feel-
from where I see you.
You are so much more than
the pain you delve in.
The dark you wear merely a cloak-
for there is a light...
it's there-in your smile-
in your laugh-
as much as the blackness you are...
there is always more...

my name is...

my name is...
does it matter?
i didn't pick it...
you want to know me?
or just my name?
would you like me to introduce m'self?
i am...
nervous, neurotic-
anxious and sad...
i am...
hopeful, happy-
idealistic and real...
i am all this and more-
do you really just want to know my name-
or do you want to know...
me?