jagged new puzzle piece

As I sit here, under this light, next to this fountain, nursing this jagged new puzzle piece for my heart to fit together with all my other jagged puzzle pieces...I gaze up at a sliver of moon and the moonchild within me sighs - sadness, mixed with confusion, laced with mistrust, interwoven with hurt.  She sighs and within her exhale she breathes out a silent plea for help...as her quiet calling goes out into the night, she...me...I entreat the gods for answers, I implore the Spirits for comfort, I beg my ancestors for strength and understanding.  Strength to get me past a new anger that seeks to find a place inside me beside all my old angers.  Understanding to help me see I am not the only one searching, making mistakes and as much as he has trespassed upon my fragile heart, so have I transgressed upon others.  I feel a breeze soft thru my hair, falling gentle upon my skin, as though my sigh had circled back to me, my Spirit converging with Spirits of those long since passed on but, in essence remaining, ever watchful...and then, the small, quiet voice within offers an answer soft but clear. "I am my own healing and with every blow to my delicate psyche, I must salve my own pain if the mending of my soul is to be true."  This realization fucking sucks...point blank, blunt and on the real.  My desire to hand these struggles off to someone stronger so intense...I just want someone to fix me, make this goddamn pain disappear; but a coward I am not, and so, with my tenaciousness dictating my every move, I take hold my sword and move forward, even as I am struck down, again and again and again.  I always get back up.  Someday I know my trials and toils will give way to peace and as I sit here, under this light, next to this fountain, gazing up at a sliver of moon...the moonchild within me sighs again.