awakened

i set out to prove everyone wrong
i focused on changing opinions,
on convincing everyone i was worth listening to
i didn't realize that while i was so busy paying attention
to what others thought,
i'd lost track of myself
i stopped growing, my Spirit caught in a place of anger and blame
this dark place threatened to swallow me up
and then...i woke up
you left us and by your leaving, my world was jarred
i woke up

i will never sleep again...