him

i love(d) him very much...

homage to 2010

This was the year that changed everything.
Thru one of the most painful heartbreaks I have ever felt,
I was reminded that now is the time to let people know you love them-NOW.
To live on knowing you didn't tell them when you had the chance
is a pain that never leaves you; it becomes part of you-a thread in the fabric that is you.
I learned to think before passing judgment and that, frankly, judging another's choices is
a worthless waste of time because I've not walked on their path.
I learned to see the mirror in the people around me and to be honest with the reflection
gazing back at me.
I learned that truly listening is an active endeavor and that sometimes, if you listen close
enough, you will hear what they aren't brave enough to tell you.
Sometimes, that is what they need you most to hear.
I learned that when a person dies, it is very easy to get caught up in the death, the regret
of lost moments. We must remember their life...they LIVED! They live in our memories and become
part of our daily lives as we move forward.
I have learned to value each beautiful sky, every soft breeze, the gentle kiss, even the casual
handshake and song sung off key. All these and more decorate the force that is Life and whatever you
believe, you are filled with this force. Every breath you take is in homage to the Energy that has you here.
What will you do with this Life?
What will you learn?
(dedicated to the memories of my brother, Steven,
my friend, Gilbert, his wife Sandra &
their children, Nicholas & Emma...RIP)

Just for now

Just for now...
can you pretend
that honor means something,
that a man's word carries weight?

Just for now...
can you pretend
that truth outweighs convenience,
that love is worth the fight?

Just for now...
can you pretend
and look me in the eye,
hold true to your integrity?

Just for now...
can my tears and my fears be set aside,
can you be real?

Just for now
and maybe, just maybe-
for always?

lost pieces of my soul

I keep lighting candles,
hoping to light a path
for those lost pieces of my soul
yearning to come back...
yearning to come home...
to me...

tierra de mi sangre...

Espana...
mi tierra,
te quiero conocer...
me siento perdida...
I miss what i barely know...
But you run through my veins...
Espana...

threshhold

I met a man standing on the threshhold of what once was and
what can be.
His present moment is one of inner turmoil and regret
as this man comes to terms with his new life.
If this man were to ask me for my advice I would say,
simply...forgive thyself.
First and foremost...forgive thyself.

now

You gotta make 'right now' count-
Life is too fragile...
our hold too precarious...
Life can be taken away-
at the snap of our fingers,
at the snap of our tenuous hold...
Our Souls can take only so much-
now is the time,
now is all we have...